Pray Unceasingly.

"Crying
Screaming
Raging

are all prayers."


Oh word? I've been crying, screaming, and raging unceasingly.
Would ya look at that, ain't that some shit?

Sanity.

I'm completely losing it. It won't be long until I just ultimately collapse and go into some kind of coma. Why the fuck does every new year always fucking start horribly? Seriously. I blame fucking january. I hate that goddamn month so passionately. But of course there are other shits to blame, of course I'll never tell though. Sigh. I just wanna beat the shit out of something or someone. Preferably the latter. And just have an all out Fight Club type shit. I think it'll help me, so much. In fact, I think that's exactly what I need. A good, satisfactory beating the shit out of each other, literally. Hooks, jabs, blows and whatever else. Shit, I wouldn't even mind hot oil water guns. Fuck yea, that'd be the shit.


sigh. ps. say a prayer because I'll finally be getting blood work soon. And no I"m not fucking out about evidence of drug use or some shit. But something even worse..

I seriously can't afford that. Lord, I know I'm all sorts of fucked up but don't give up on me now. Not yet. But not for my sake, oh goodness especially not for my sake.

oh please, CALM THE FUCK DOWN.

[via word boner]